Jeffery's Coffee

quiet possibly the happiest ive been in a long time.
im starting to make this life for myself.
i have no fucking idea how it turned out this way.
but here it is.
my heart is pounding because i thought about my girl for too long.
i just got back from the trenches for a part of history
and i have encountered the person who i want to be.
it all feels like a preface before this.
now the story can start.
and if she could see this she might actually agree.

i have just come back from Huntsville Ontario where i was just ‘out’ for the first time.
it just felt so natural.
people in this world are real.
i just realised this for the first time.

shit that took me a long time to write. that means i got too side tracked just thinking.
i need to be around people who think.

cooking made me realise this.
and that cooking made me realise a lot of things.
that is when i think about everything.

people wondered why i never talked its because when im thinking.
and for the one night i turned off my brain and stoped thinking i was loud as a motorbike.



sorry if this dragged on.
that’s my a.d.d again.


so here the just.
im pretty sure im in love.
and my life has never been better.
i wanna sing it from the fucking rooftops.
i am always smiling.
when i didnt talk to alex i was grumpy, and she would leave my mind
then i start thinking about her and a smile comes on to my face.
it is this weird circle and its confusing as hell and scary as shit. but i wont just runaway. i am sticking it out. its do or die time.
time to be a grown up.
starting living my life.
start riding my bike.
start buying those records.
start bringing in the bacon.
start talking.
start.

and this may sound a little crude.
i wanna fuck her so bad.